I am going to be honest about something... I actually don't really believe in doing New Years resolutions. I believe 110% in getting clear on your intentions and setting forth action steps to attain your goals. However, I am kind of a naturalist, and take a nod from the Mayans. I set my intentions in rhythm with the seasons. Meaning, I "plant" my intentions for the year in the spring, let those seeds embed and begin to grow in the summer, begin to see the physical manifestation of them in the fall, let what doesn't serve fall away in the winter, and see my year's intention come into full bloom the following spring. However, I understand most do not employ this method to manifestation (although I do recommend), therefore, I will state my 2011 spring intentions and take this time to reflect on their evolution.
My biggest intention was around my business. Over the past 3 years I have had to muster up the courage to make a giant career transition from being a TV host
and Executive Producer
, to follow a life passion around health & wellness. I have always run a parallel career path, one being media, the other being personal training and wellness. Just like many actresses have waitressing jobs when in between gigs, I went back into personal training when in between shows or producer positions. However, my own slew of health related issues re-engaged me to the work of health & wellness. My issues were a tangled web that can most easily be summed up with the diagnosis of "over-stressed", "overwhelm", and "burnout". My predisposed perspective of more and faster is better, in combination to not dealing with certain emotional events, caused me to rob my body of it's vital sources.
After running on empty for many years, my body, mind and spirit finally hit a wall. Even my iron clad will couldn't peel me up out of bed. As I laid in my listless body, and my confused mind, I could only sit and wonder where I went wrong. With all of my successes, achievements, and knowledge in health & wellness (I was a high school All-American Cross Country athlete and had my personal training certification 8 years prior to this) I thought I had done everything "right". In that moment (which, in fact, was closer to a year than a single moment) a desire, prayer, vow welled up inside me to uncover the real keys to health and happiness, because, evidently, they are not wrapped up in all my accomplishments.
One of the first keys was the discovery that what I truly wanted (more than the perfect body that I endlessly exhausted myself to attain) was a sense of wellbeing. Even in the days when I did have the "perfect" (whatever that means) body, I didn't necessarily feel good. I began myself to feel a shift in desire from vanity to VITALITY. I began to get really curious about energetic flows, what gives us that feeling of being healthy, happy and free. What does that constellation of practices look like??? After diving into this question, I came to understand that, yes, diet and exercise are critical... BUT, what seems to have a particular priority when it comes to this feeling of wellbeing is the stability of one's nervous system. The stability and optimum function of one's nervous system is a necessary bridge to one's sense of wellbeing and vitality.
From that knowing (and I promise to get to my New Year's resolution in a second), I was hit with a memory of a master chinese medicine healer who assessed my pulses and told me what kinds of exercise I should be doing to bring my body into harmony. This fascinated me to no end. From that fascination welled up an inspired idea. I wanted to create a device that assessed people's pulses, and therefore nervous system, to give them corresponding exercise prescriptions that assists in bringing their body back into balance.
And there it is folks, my New Year resolution (a.k.a. spring equinox intention), to make my mark in the heath & wellness industry by creating a consumer fitness technology. We are in the winter season, so I am expecting to see whatever doesn't serve this endeavor to fall away. A scary prospect, as the creation has been flowing very nicely thus far and it is hard to let go. But, that is the agreement you strike when you are truly co-creating with the universe in service to others. After living many years of strong arming my life, and unfortunately hurting myself, I now choose to TRUST the process, to do my best, and surrender the rest. And as Rumi said, "Trust means, you are ready to risk what you currently have." I guess I have to risk losing the dream of what I want, for the reality of what will be.
Stay tuned to the evolution.
And until then, expect more posts from me, as an ancillary part to my big dream goal is to grow my business in general.
More interaction, connection, clients, classes, workshops, offerings, products, hugs ;)
All the feedback you can give me the better.
Finally, check out an amazing new perk in my life... a radio show!!!
Tell your friends and hit me up with questions as I am taking Q&A from audience members.
Hope 2012 treats your right!